Thank you Tay

Today I dreamt of a powerful dream
I dreamt of Tay.
He called me at last.
And we spoke.
As usual, I tried to sound happy and busy.
I told him that I'm eating alot, and I eat everyday.
He was smiling over the phone. I could hear / feel it.

Then there was a pause. A long pause.
My sister and Dad came into / were in the room.
Jie was making up and Dad was asking if we were ready (to leave the house).
It seemed we were going to a family gathering.

I then said to Tay that I've gotta go.
Because I don't wish to be the one being hung up, over again.

He called to me, " Jeanette".
And said, "I"m sorry."
He mentioned a girl's name which I can't recall / hear.
But I knew it wasn't the current girlfriend.
So I said, " You meant Janice?" (Apparently it was Janice Ku, our client)
And there was a longer pause.

It seemed he was crying over the phone.
And I felt awful again.
Anger and abandonment.

I waited slightly longer before I hang up.
Without a goodbye.

And I woke up.

Tay, if you were communicating with me in my dream
I get you.

I forgive you.
But I won't forget.
For I'll learn the lesson in this relationship we had.

I know what I've been always feeling
Waiting without avail.
Waiting without answer.
I felt that I have been always behind you in life.
Always ceaselessly waiting.

And I know.
I don't want that feeling anymore.

I understand the deeper meaning of this dream.

I need to understand the lesson here and to move on with my life.

I forgive you and I love you.
But I shan't forget, the lesson behind this.

Thank you Tay.