Today

"It's dark, now, and I am very tired. I love you, always. Time is nothing."
Henry to Clare, in the Time Traveller's Wife.

In my quiet moments
I think of you.

I say, Come to me. Come to me now.

Then i, think of the past, and i say.."U jerk. i feel stupid"

Then I think of now.

And I"m here. You aren't here.

So nothing can hurt me now.

Even if it's in the past, I am here now.

I look at myself. I am fine.

My heart cracks. breaks. shatters.
for what it is worth.

I stand here now. alone.
still.

Still, I am thinking.
I am thinking of us embracing.

Then a girl's name flashed by my head.
And i ache

I ache and i pushed it aside

But it comes back stronger.

The force comes back stronger.

And i just have to see it.
I have to look into it.

And i start to cry.