Sunday, April 12, 2009

Here in Canvass

Today

I'm guilty of making people upset
Today I'm guilty of losing proper relationships

Today
I'm guilty of becoming who i am

Today
I'm guilty of all things that i think would make me good

Today


It's the 12th April 2009. I'm at Canvass. Had a row with my sister over delaying time.
I brought up the past. chided her for delaying time that i cancelled my massage. 
Upset with myself for going down with her to art friend which i know that i will be late
for
know that my time is delayed know that my day is wasted

Today
I'm very upset
Why

Why do i go if i knew this will happen

did i jinx it

Why

Is this a matter at all

Why will she cry and why must i be upset

Why?? 

I don't know why
But i don't want this no more


I don't know why
But my life is in a constant spiral

not necessarily up 
and not necessarily down


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