Is this gone forever?

Lately, I've been thinking.

Am i too crazy? to love a man who's not here
to fall in love with a man whom i can only hear his voice?

I should feel lucky

Am i an old hag who can't get to sleep in my tent?

Am i the dreamer who lives and loves on fantasy that never comes?

Am i the girl who lives on little bit of love from others and keeps none for herself?

Am i that girl?

Or am i acting it?

who am i

this question is a spiritual qn

is it this simple

who am i

i am just you

Jeanette

who's jeanette

the girl who cries over tay

the girl who dreams of a wonderful love life

who am i?

When i become that,

who am i again?

what am i ?

the never-changing consciousness

who's love who's lust

who's breaking out?