Am i supposed to think that the trip is cancelled?

why do i think so much



Yesterday when you texted me, it seems that things were fine.





until i texted you about my day,

i mentioned that i 've also missed you much..



when u replied you said i'm ok.. had a good dinner..on the way home..nite nite!

about love?

why? do u not miss me? am i wondering so much?



then i text back that my dad just brought back some crabs..

no reply from you,...



what was i doing the whole time

iafter i text the last msg

i went down

chit chatted with everyone.

i had a good time talking to pple

i even found the guy interesting.

i also thought of you. i thought why you hadnt text me back

i wondered and wondered



1 hour later,

i went back to the room and couldnt sleep.

i thought that you might not want to go to the trip..maybe you like someone else

maybe you are tuned off by me

maybe this maybe that



i tried to sleep through the night and woke up a few times..sitrred up by the night's events even though it was minor. i felt awake. tried not to think of it so hard. Even secretly hoping for the the next day to start so i could contact you.



i tried rep[laying the scene in my head..

is it because you do not want to go krabi? it's funny why you did not update me about the trip.

maybe uare being nice by not telling me now, cause my exams are nearing or something...



i seem to have a lot of issues with myself thinking alot



i'm sensitive. very sensitive.sighhhh

i doubt we can stay together anymore

i'm getting sick of fake dreams

both of us are dreaming away

wasting away our time



temporal love first love

what are all this

this will never happen

can never happen



i hate all this

travelling seeing each other and all that

My Distraction

I hope you know by now that my daily distraction is him
if i can't prevent it...embrace it.

Learn to control what i am thinking about.
because distance is the only factor
and the greatest factor.