Will he cheat?

will he cheat? why does he cheat...i'm so upset with my dad for flirting. i don't even know if he slept with the chinese girls. ah.. learn to compartmentalize my fears. it does not apply to all. hate it.

seems like i have to work extra hard to make this work and to keep my man faithful. so not easy. easier to read a book. easier if i've cheated. easier if i felt secure.

too much is never enough. darn. all the wonders in the world... i think i can only be detached. be detached with the sense that i do not own a man. that i cannot control his feelings/behaviour.

but i can. and i should do what i think i'm able to afford with him..

give, with no expectations.
take, with love and gratitiude.

expectations makes you control.

however, expecations in work...expectations with yourself. have it higher. placed it higher....
learn to expect, drive yourself to better life. strive...