Reading back my posts

I realised i tense up easily
i worry alot maybe sometimes for nothing
maybe that's just me.
i think alot
i should calm down and take things easy.

of course
hoping, wishing for a marriage will not give u a good feeling.
because u are insecure
and ur inner self is telling it will not work out if u want to be married for that reason
to feel secure

why would u want to marry tay?
when he's just 21 and not completed his studies?
Is there a reason?
to not feel abandoned..to feel safe?
to not undergo trauma.. are u afraid?
not that u will undergo the trauma.

but have no fear

things with you are fine the way it is.

i love how he would hold me nad hug me.
love how he would hold me close to kiss me on the forehead.