melancholy

my heart sanked as i received his text message
the things i said to make him feel this way
alas, my efforts hasnt been wasted
to say what i wanted to happen

but
i wonder

if i did really wish for this
the outcome is still blurry in my head

my mind is misleaded
by words from others
i took what i decided to take in

has it been a bumpy ride in my head
to wish for things to be clear

things aint clear without the silence of my soul

phone ringing
i wished it was him