its late

Victory Victory Victory that's my guiding word will i turn insane? that i'll never know i'm now in a foreign place, at a street called charoen still stuck to this i wonder what this brings me now me being thick-skinned open open open up open up be more open what tay said in the car i felt he embarassed me!! Have more confidence he said i should janette open open open love urself more if he abandons you ? how are u goin g to take it? idiot he didnt call didnt look for me so diff from b4 not anxioua not anxious at all damn fuck you!!!!!! i bet u are int eh room sleeepin readin comics when i return huh? where havbe u beeen sayin i throw tantrums so what i have no confidencce!! say what? damnu idiot wait till i warm up heated up i hate u ' the hellu been why am i here/ DO I REAAALY EWANT THSI? WHY AM I so certain this would work i dont know and i dun wanna waste more time money the ridiculous things we do he could have called he just didngt am i goinf to be alright???! fuck u u there wake up and call me ahh! what no confidence and hitting me do u really think i have no confidence? i'll show u i'm afarid to scold them it's not rig th so why dun u tell them off? i t hink i should le tthem, carry on and they are fine why hiot me and tell me off int he care urrghjh jeanette i realise u get very uipset over comments it's commetns howdo u handle this?? now i want to go back and killl!!! him darmn jerkkkkk fucker hate him urrghhh j jeanttte victory victory calm down calm down why do i think he till wants me?? why do i think he would like this why do i think this will come good??? whaat the fuck my own wishful thinking i better get honme it's late and i should stop waiting ? be independent it's nothing just getting fussed up over small things thinking too much jeanette love u take care go home soon and rest well he should be asleep nvm that u should be able to take care of yourself love urself take care the doenst have to love me to make me ive he down have to love me to love myself me a big huge piece should take care of myself love ttyl