relationships

HAndling relationships. I feel like a freshie in all.

Im bad in keeping contact with friends, family.I find it hard. i don't know what they are thinking i feel shunned at the same time i shun them don't know what this is. i'm sick of this. to and fro startin a new tie over. so many things feeling the same way over again. feeling down. feeling happy. so unstable. i need some one here. but someone here i'm bad at keeping too. i hate the fact that it has to be this way. i wish to have it changed.

pam. the closest one i have i claim to have. is away now. but very little calls from her and no responses. distant. i dunno if we've grwon apart or it is just this way. ppl grow andppl gfrow out of the habit of loving. but they still love you.

I need love, constant love. and i feel hanged easily. i get overaroused.

Its funny.

Having said that, How do i keep a long dist r/nshop? i cna't get too attached.
But he is quite needy at times. he is quite passionate. i dont' think needy now. now that he feels he've gotten me. But have he? I think so. I think of him 24r/7. Do my best too be what he likes. i 'm trying so hard. when he text, i take note of the times he got upset when i don't. what ihe enjoysm, i take note. give it to him in excess.
Try to please him.

Maybe i'm new in this kind of relationship. maybe i don't understand men as well as pam, fannie, siste... women who had r/nships with men before. yep, i wnat to keep this one. but seems like it's slipping away. dreadful.