i've got a sharp pain..

Suddenly, christmas lightings down Orchard

wasn't so grand anymore.
Suddenly, carols played under lamp posts

sounded annoying.
The cheerfulness of the season, died.

My heart is angry. it is upset.
My 1st day of break. ruined by errand running.
My hope of shopping for me. gone by your calls.
I tried changing your name,
I got sick of the previous one appearing on my phone.
But it didn't help, it's dreading.

I don't work for you.
I'm not rushing to aid you.
It isn't pleasing.
You do well in making me feel bad, only to run more errands.

I have my life.
but you're constantly eating into mine.
and making a shark bite out of it.

i snapped.i hung up.
it got on my nerves.

Phew

Finished my papers!! Such relief i would say.
It's torturous having to think of studies when you are at work, Or, when guilt hits you if you are out partying.

Things i would wanna do right now..

1. Indulge in the xmas spirit, finally!
2. Dvd rentals-- yes, after work!
3. paint, craft, draw
4. lunches with family and friends
5. visit nellie
6. sleep. YEss now!
7. ooh, a hair-cut!

Pam's supposed to be back on 16th Dec. That's tom..i was looking forward to it.

With her, Life is good.

Ever so easy to ditch longing
yet longing comes after me.

Ever so easy to quit
yet quitting i'm not gamed for.

Ever so easy to act nonchalant.
Yet nonchalance, i dread.

Ever so easy to leave
Yet leaving stings me

Ever so easy to forget
yet existence soothes.

Ever so easy to take one step
Yet fear is rubbed in.

Somewhere over the rainbow

Skies are blue

And the dreams that you dare to dream

Really do come true

Some day I'll wish upon a star
And wake up

Where the clouds are far behind me

well well

today's the start of an end.

i must have been dreaming when i thought things would stay.

today's the end of a start.

Now i should come to terms that it takes two to clap.